Ok ok, so, I'm not getting married and no one is ill but I am looking forward to the end of this week!
I have two appointments with different career advisors from different organisations (CCI and la maison de la formation if you're interested) and I'm trying to prepare myself mentally. They are obviously going to ask me what type of things interest me and I'm trying to look stuff up to get an idea so I just don't look blankly at them and then get told off for wasting their time. The thing is, I honestly don't have any fixed ideas on what I would like to do and I'm interested to see what I am capable of doing in France.
My main problem is my confidence. Yes, I can speak and understand French very well, but I can't really write it well as I've never really needed to. Thus I feel I'm rubbish and will not find any job!
I've also considered that I will probably need to retrain at something but I don't fancy doing a BTS as I feel it's a step back as I already have a degree in science but it seeme that BTSs are the dogs dinner when looking for jobs around here. I would consider doing a masters but I'm not sure I want to do research which is basically what science masters are about and would I qualify to do any other type of masters? In France I doubt it. Please tell me if you know differently!!
I've been told by the ANPE recently that the fact that I am bilingual means a lot to any employer and I know I definitely want to be able to use my English....but that's as far as my career plan goes at the moment.
and then there is the crise. It's not exactly the time to want to change career path is it?! I can be a lectrice for another year but then would that help much as teaching options will have dried up at this point...and I don't want to continue teaching....but it is the safest option for me...
I know I should stop worrying and wait to see what the career advisors have to say for themselves but I can't help stressing out about the unknown. It's my weakness.
This week I also have a French test - TCF. I don't know if it will actually achieve anything but I really want to see what level I'm at as the last time I did a French test I was 16 and my French has certainly improved since school days! I've since heard the TEF is better for employers, I can always do that later I guess. Does anyone have any experience with French tests and if they are 'worth' anything at all. For me, this time at least, it's a personal quest.....
I really do feel lost this week. The uni is still blockaded, I'm not working and stressing about my future is my main activity. Now that makes a refreshing change ;o)